Overwhelmed (it continues)

So, I am now officially 11 weeks pregnant--the baby bump is forming :) The babies are getting bigger and so is my stomach area! It is cute right now but I have a feeling I will get huge! Our pregnancy is still a "secret" right now so I try to wear baggy shirts where it either looks like I'm pregnant or I am just gaining weight :) We are planning on announcing our pregnancy in 2 weeks. Hopefully we can hold it in until then--it is getting harder to hide it and one of us in this relationship likes talking :)

So, the overwhelming part of this pregnancy continues. I mentioned in the previous post that I was trying to apply for short-term disability. So, as it turns out I don't qualify for short-term disability because I work part-time. So, then they thought I could apply for long-term disability. However, there is a 90 day evaluation period before payments would begin and by then I would have the babies. And then to top it off I don't qualify for that either because I have not been with the agency for a year. So, that leaves me with one choice--I will be turning in my resignation. It is bittersweet. I am excited because my dream of becoming a mother is finally becoming a reality, yet we are about to be in huge financial stress. So, we have 9 weeks left.

Michael is trying so hard--bless him. He is really trying hard to provide for us and has been applying for additional employment. I feel so blessed to have him and I know he will work hard to provide for us. I never doubt his love for me or the babies as he reminds me several times a day--I am beyond blessed.

All of this leaves me in a pretty helpless position, yet Michael reminds me that my body is "working hard" to make these babies strong. It doesn't really feel that way right now except I am exhausted all of the time (except in the middle of the night). Of course I also have to pee a million times a night (okay, like 4) so that leaves my mind a lot of time to think. I am working hard though at trying not to dwell on all of the logistics right now. It's not easy--I know it will work out yet I have no idea HOW it will work out. So, hopefully sometimes happens soon. These babies are coming no matter what so we just have to make the best out of our current situation. So, keep us in your thoughts and prayers--we are incredibly blessed though by our three miracle babies :) There will be a way--there has to be...